Betrayal (verb) : to deliver or expose to an enemy by disloyalty; to be unfaithful; to disappoint.
Denial (noun) : an assertion that something that is said or believed is false; refusal to believe doctrine; disbelief of existence of a thing.
At some point in our lives, we have all experienced one of these emotions. Maybe from family, friends, co-workers, or maybe in some cases, ourselves. There have been times that we may have denied a friendship or talked about someone behind their back with someone else, there may have been times that we refused to believe someone even though they were telling us the truth, there may have been times where we have disappointed others or ourselves.
But the extent that we have felt these emotions are nothing compared to what Christ felt. He was betrayed not once but three times by one of His followers, He was mocked, He was tortured; all so that we didn’t have to be.
But His denial didn’t stop with Peter; it continues with us. I’ll be the first to admit that there have been times where I didn’t admit to being a believer. The friends I spent most of my time around in High School were not believers and I got tired to fighting the fight of trying to convince them to believe. Even though I didn’t deny it, the fact that I didn’t defend my faith – defend Him – wasn’t close enough to betrayal – it was betrayal. My betrayal to Him was worse when I stopped worshiping. I quit going to church, I stopped praying, I took my issues upon myself and majority of the time, they got worse.
We turn our faces in fear as to what others will think. We get the frame of mind that no situation is bad enough to where we need His help. We lose faith because of things we may have been put through in our lives; deaths, abuse, divorce, life-threatening diseases/illnesses, and so on. We become bitter and closed off because we just don’t understand “why us.”
But since Jesus died on the cross for our sins, we no longer have to live like fearful and faithless cowards. We can stand proud, confess our sins, and ask for forgiveness.
“If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” ~ 1 John 1:9
He is there to make our crimson stained lives white again. He is there to cleanse us from all that is unholy.
Since yesterday was Resurrection Sunday, Shane and I braved watching The Passion of the Christ with the kids. Talk about a tough movie to watch; especially with two kids who are visually sensitive to movies like this.
I first saw in in 2004 while I was in confirmation. At the time, I was a bit put off by all the blood and gore that was shown but I didn’t fully understand the meaning behind it.
However, watching it 11 years later had a whole new feel to it. I understood why these things were happening. I found a greater appreciation for what He endured so that we didn’t have to. But, the kids covered their eyes and hid their faces as the most pivotal points in the movie were happening. (But I can’t say that I blame them.)
But then I realized our biggest faults here on Earth.
We hide our faces.
We hide in fear that we may not “fit in” or that we will be viewed as “weak.”
We cannot keep living a life of masquerade. How can He help us if we don’t allow Him to?
Sometimes we just need a pivotal moment in our lives to knock us down and show us that we cannot keep living our lives the way we had been. My moment? When I realized I had been brainwashed to become a person I wasn’t. When I realized I was fighting with my family more than I was talking to them. When I realized that that ring on my finger felt more like a noose. That was when I realized that I needed Jesus and that I needed to stop living in denial and misery.
We have two choices; continue on a destructive path harming ourselves and those around us or ask Him to guide us back onto the path that He has laid out for us.
He gave His life for us, the least we could do is give up our lives to Him.
What is your choice?